He stays home because he is sick...(we are all sick)...and I emotionally throw up all over him. I cry, I whine, I reject all his attempts to fix it. He doesn't get defensive, he continues to throw out ideas and suggestions, he hugs me and tells me it will all be okay. Which does make me feel a little better except that I am not content with that...I want to know how it is going to be okay. The details, preferably in a spreadsheet with dates. He doesn't work that way.
I don't know how to get everything done. I don't know how to stay on top of it. If I only do the high priority things then the other things never get done...and they need to get done...they just aren't as pressing so they are always last on the list.
I'm worried about my job. It is not very stable at the moment. So, after all the freaking out is over I find another option. Which includes me cutting out more time...time to take a class, update my resume, send out letters...all in the hopes that it will be in place before I actually no longer have my current job. Which will hopefully not happen, but is pretty likely.
I haven't even managed to have a shower yet. My throat is killing me and I am living on cough drops. And I am a goofball...because....
I have a husband who does dishes, laundry, vacuums, changes poopy diapers, never gets defensive, and on occasion stays home from work just so I can get caught up. I have a little boy who is healthy, who sleeps through the night and has a smile that makes my soul smile. I have a nice house with every luxury imaginable. I have a job which has allowed me to stay at home with my little boy. And I am healthy.
So, about this day, I guess I would just say, "Hope you know...I had a hard time." - From one of the conference talks.
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My heart goes out to you. Sometimes the weight of the world feels like it's a bit too much, even if you have an amazing someone by your side to help shoulder the burdens. Here's a big hoo-rah because you girlfriend, are amazing too. Here's a little extra love and support coming to you all the way from Washington. :)
Ant that is why my favorite scripture is still "And it came to pass". Thankfully most of the troubles in our lives do pass even though at the time they seem just too big.
An extra measure of love to the Hill family today.
Oh sis... whish I could help!
Life seems so simple when you can just eat, workout, work and sleep constantly.
All that extra stuff...rough.
Deep breaths
I am Jack's complete and utter sympathy.
I am Jack's jaw muscles. I help Jack smile!;)
I loved that talk!
I just have to say it's nice to know I'm not the only one that wonders how things are going to work out. I have things on my to do list from last December (at work, I don't date my to do list at home). I haven't gotten to it because it wasn't an "absolutely has to be done now" to do.
Just remember - like mom says - It came to pass, it didn't come to stay. I love that line. It makes me feel like if I can just live through today and get to tomorrow, somehow everything will get done....and if it doesn't I will survive somehow.
I think all husbands at some point have to deal with our insecurities and emotional outbursts. That's a husbands duty.
I feel like for the last few months I have been standing on the edge of a ledge, just waiting for the gust of wind that is going to knock me off it. My insides are a wreck and yet I need to pretend that everything is okay for Mike and the kids. I know that my breakdown is coming - I'm just putting it off for a more convenient time. That being said, I think as Moms, and wives and women in general, we all have these times that we fall apart and don't know how to get back on our feet, but the great thing is that we DO. We wake up and we continue on and we get what needs to be done, done...eventually :)
Love you, sorry your feeling cruddy.
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