As we listen and watch General Conference the First Presidency sits in an empty tabernacle in chairs several feet from each other. I fluctuate between anxiety and fear as things grow worse and peace and faith as I listen to the speakers. We have been isolating ourselves at home for the last few weeks. Church is temporarily closed and we are having church at home.
In some ways it is an amazing blessing! James is able to bless the sacrament and Max to pass it. Each of us have prepared talks and played hymns. Zane has flourished as he prepares talks and scriptures to share. We are able to bear our testimony and have the sacrament in our home.
It is sad to not be able to invite Grandpa Keith over. We pray that our families will be okay. We stopped holding Family School and I have been putting the lessons online. We don't go to music lessons and have playdates. The boys are a bit tired of not being able to be with friends but they are doing pretty well and as spring arrives they spend more time outside.
I am grateful for the forced break that is also giving me time to breath and assess. I was really getting burned out; by the school and the friendships that have somehow wrapped around every part of my life. I am evaluating everything; every podcast, book group, friendship, school activity and my own reading life. I have been tired and overwhelmed and am strangely grateful for the forced isolation.
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